Travel - ling - er

Rocket Launch. This is not about Diwali rockets. Real rocket launched by a group of PG students at USC, including a junior (only with respect to year of passing out) from my college. An October sky repeat, I'd say.

There is also this MS guy who usually updates his status with a line he heard from his lecturers that day, very good ones at that. These make you want to take up higher studies.

There is the guy who goes all over USA and sends pics of places you instantly fall in love with. Wish I was there.

There is this fellow who goes all to all hill stations in India in the pretext of work.

There are the fellows who take a car to watch a match at Camp Nou.

There are guys who live so close to Fulham Road they claim that they can hear the sound of the crowd from Stamford Bridge. True or not, their plan did the trick.

Oh, I almost forgot. There is this Ivan who is vehemently refusing his Finland citizenship, much to all our anger.

I want to travel.

Not during weekends. No, I think the negativities in going back to Bangalore to work on Monday outweigh any joy I am going to get there. I want to go some place for three months and another place from there for the next three months. Or something like that.

I want to explore for ever. I am as interested in Harappa as an archeologist can ever be. I want to be an historian in Scotland. I want to research on Mahabalipuram, Hampi and Adichanallur. I want to be a Chelsea fan in Stamford bridge and an Arsenal fan at Emirates; a Bayern fan at Allianz and a Milan fan at San Siro. I want to do all these, and write about them. I want to write for a movie. I want to publish novels.

I want to do much more!

Sigh. Back to work.

Love is only once, they say

Don't know how long I can go on like this,
aimlessly, without focus.
I lost life when I lost you,
Now temme what is there for me to do?

You know, I tried to fall in love again once;
Ha, like I could. I did not know that then.
Every time there when things weren't fun,
I yearned for you; Now I hear, 'Ah! These men'.

Would think of you often and how it'd be with you.
How could I be in 'love' with any one else then?
It dawned upon me brightly when you left forever,
I couldn't be complete with out you, Hon.

That was when I knew how much I missed you,
A huge gap in me, but I guess twas a li'l too late.
I quit all my ideas of falling in love with someone else
And went into my shell for ever, Alone will be my state.

You may never know if I even liked you
Though that's on the wall for all to see.
So now, You are happy with another dude,
I'll stay at a distance. I'll let you be.

I can fall in love all over again,
but I realise...only with the same gorgeous face.
No other person in the world can match your
Elegance, fashion, tradition or grace.

Years may pass on, time does fly
I'll flow aimlessly like the river.
Angels may come and angels may go,
but you'll live on in my heart forever!

- Me

PS: you'd want to look at the tags. :)
PS 2: I write all these stuff. But I can't understand this one thing. How can you love someone so selflessly, especially when that person does not think the same way, or worse, does not know you exist?

Looking Inside..

I yearn for someone. To talk to, to walk with.
I lost you, without even competing. Shoulda at least tried.
Miss? ha ha, I miss you like hell !
Even without talking to you much.

I shouldn't be brooding over
You; without you even knowin'.
I take out the memory weed, one by one,
But with every cut, it just keeps on growing.

When days get long,
When things go so wrong,
I chant your name girl. Ah, Memories...
I search for Calm. I search for Peace.

Lost a lot in life; yup, still reeling...
Today, things.. things, they do look torn...
I want to confide in you, my every damn feeling...
But Oh, yea whatever, You are already gone...